I understand the hurt and disappointment my family feels . It’s a huge shock and a big change to go through . They’re hearts are broken , but so are mine . I haven’t changed , I’m still the same person , with the exact same personality , with the same goals . Yet , they treat me as if I’m a stranger . I’m trying to keep a smile on my face but if im happy , that means I don’t care about their feelings . If I’m sad that means im guilty of doing something wrong . Either way , I lose . I’m mourning the loss of each relationship I have with my family members , besides my brother . Without him , who knows where I would be . It just hurts more then anything that I need my family most now , and they want nothing to do with me . Where am I supposed to turn to now ?